TheBanyanTree: Random

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I peer into the window and watch as the people mill about confidently; I'll
go in soon.  Confident.  Chatting and and listening with equal aplomb and
poise, being exactly what is needed for them and for me.  The real me will
be outside watching us all at work...work it is.

We're all fakes to some degree which causes some isolated feelings but it is
the you when alone with you and the degree of honesty which can be
ackowledged about this that counts.  It is survival as primal as a chameleon
changing shades and the opposum posing for dead.  We all become vibrant upon
command and die as needed.  It isn't the human condition necessarily but it
adds its own shadow to complete the ultimate picture.

Maria




On Mon, Jul 6, 2009 at 9:28 AM, <NancyIee at aol.com> wrote:

>
>
>
> My  security lies in my isolation, an isolation that is not unpleasant and
> is
> often necessary. Without the occasional isolation, I wouldn't survive in
> the
> world. It'd be too much for me, all at once, and I'd implode with the
> strain
> of it.
>
>
>
> You are not alone, Monique,
>
> While at home I was the eldest of us six, and had bold charge of my
> siblings in directing their play, etc, at school, I was the wallflower. a
> really
> late bloomer.
>
> Even now I tend, like you, to wait in the background until a small space
> opens up where I may say a word or two.  My best friend is just the
> opposite, the belle of the ball, beloved by all after just a few moments in
> a
> group.  She has charisma and always knows what to say, and always seems
>  jolly
> and hugging everyone all the time.  That's not me, but I don't mind  being
> her
> shadow, and therefore, popular by her lead.
>
> Yet, in my home (it's complicated, but the same best friend stays with me
> often, since she lives in a place with mega restrictions, and comes to my
> house  for freedom and R & R.  However, she was also a amrine, with her own
> rigidity. She leaves me notes taped around the house "please clean out the
> washing machine after you use it" since I sometime shave grass on my jeans
> after  mowing. Or : "please clean out the filter on the coffee pot after
> use"
> since I  often leave it in. It's really not one of my main concerns, that
> old grounds  might stain the filter thingee.
>
> Meaning: she puts me in my place, and after I feel good being her shadow
> and getting leftover popularity from her own stardom.
>
> But, I have friends at work,  and online, and a modest appreciation of  a
> few talents and characteristics of my own.  That's enough.  I am
>  comfortable
> in my solitude, and have way too many things to do to give it much
>  concern.
>
> NancyLee
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