TheBanyanTree: Heartbreak Hill

[Tobie Shapiro]

January 21, 200006


Dear Maria, and dear youz guyz,

	My favourite apple is:  The Arkansas Black

	Not your usual apple.  It is deep dark dark red, roundish, 
and firm with extremely dense and sweet flesh.  Very old fashioned 
apple.  Very tasty.  Probably only comes in the organic variety.  I 
can get them for a couple months at my local mom and pop grocery 
store that has a rarified produce manager.  The Arkansas Blacks just 
went out of season a few weeks ago.  I miss them.

	As for the one more turn up this summit:  Honey, there is a 
little bit of Sisyphus in all of us.  If there weren't, there would 
be nothing but only children, no one would get married again, and no 
one would ever finish elementary school.  Certainly if there were no 
sisyphus complex, there would be no psychotherapy.  One 
disappointment would be all it took to silence us forever, and people 
would die happy at whatever age the Lord saw fit to take them.  We 
owe a lot to Sisyphus.

	Love,

	Tobie



>I'm thinking, I can't do one more turn up this summit.  The altitude 
>is too high for me and me without a parachute.  I can't endure one 
>more wrenching heart squeeze, not one more tear, not one more tummy 
>flip-flop.  I can't do any more worrying, doubting and or wondering. 
>I'm sure I'll never get the map of this hill, never know why I was 
>sent up it and why no search and rescue team came to save me.  I 
>know that no matter what it seems I can't endure, I'll have to 
>anyway.
>
>Wish I hadn't shared what my favorite apple is.
>
>Fuji.
>
>Maria

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Tobie Helene Shapiro
Berkeley, California   USA

tobie at shpilchas.net