TheBanyanTree: FW: JENNIFER'S FIRST DAY

[Sharon Mack]

JENNIFER'S FIRST DAY

 

I don't think 

I was that good 

of a Mom 

even though 

I tried real hard

and I loved you

with all my might.  

 

The #8 picture

reminded me 

of you 

going to Kindergarten

that first day.  

 

For some reason 

your leaving 

the home 

hurt the most,

much more

than the others.

Somehow, 

they seemed

ready.  

 

You were so frail and tiny.  

You put your hand on the window 

and I put mine on yours 

from the other side 

and I left it there, 

even walking 

along the side of the bus 

till I couldn't anymore.  

 

Then you turned 

and held on to the back 

of the cracked 

brown leather seat,

and caught me 

in your view,

watching me

wave at you.  

 

I cried  

silent tears, 

softly flowing

to my lips, my chin.

 

You did not wave, 

just stared

keeping careful watch

with your big brown eyes 

open wide with fear.