TheBanyanTree: Tree, Spoon, Campfire

[Terri]

And we are still here.

I am stunned and amazed.  NOT that we are still here, but that I am still here, in this house, alone.  Well.  it's not like nothing has happened.  I have fought my landlady bitterly -- and won every step of the way.  She is out about $80,000.  I am ahead about $2000.  More importantly, I still have my home of 13 years.  And she lives far away, so let her rail.

But it was a nightmare.

I no longer have my cat companion, Chloe.  But I have Jasper -- a goofy dawg -- who is  kinder and sweeter than anyone I know, and has no end to the antics he's willing to do to make me laugh.

I have fosterd 97 other baby animals -- some more successfully than others.  A little more than half have survived to go on and change the lives of other folks and their families.

I have fallen in love a couple of times, and sunk pretty deep.  On the UP side -- I have made many really Good Friends, who I can depend on in case of emergency.  And even boredom.  :->

I've written up several life stories, of folks I encountered when I went to their estate sale.  I'm looking for an agent to peddle a collection of them.  I like to think I got SOME writing done while I indulged in this voyeuristic hobby.  Plus I'm at the end of my nest egg.  I need a job.

I started a novel, realized the writing wasn't honest, which is usually my forte, so put it away till I am not so intimidated by the genre.

I stopped writing for Hollywood -- I have to trust and respect the people I work with.  Hollywood made me VERY unhappy.  We don't mix well.

And I turned to stage  plays again -- which is where I started.  They are so easy for me to write.  And I'm so much better at it now.

Well, this has all been about ME, hasn't it?  I am always just so amazed when people mention time passing.  In my 30's, I was part of the 4% of the population who believed time passed far too slowly.  Of course, I also suffered from clinical depression -- that can make life a real bummer.

I still have my dips -- I had one the past two weeks, when it all came back to me, the hopelessness, the powerlessness, the midnight abyss of life with the endless loop of despair and sorrow playing in my mind.  I am now able to look at thge terrible feelings and know "This is just chemicals.  Feelings are not facts.  This will pass.  If it doesn't, I'll go to the doctor."

That's a major accomplishment.  And, hey, I do feel better today.

And we are still here.

xox
Sidda