TheBanyanTree: Today

[Monique Colve]

For those who don't follow me on FB.


I would like to tell you a story. But my mind is blank. My MRI shows a big open space where my brain should be. 

This is not where I expected to be at this age. I always thought I'd be dead by now. But I'm obviously not. Anyone who has any sort of life altering medical condition will know that it changes you. It can also change the people around you. I used to have colleagues! But I'm a part timer who is also damaged - I can't keep up with those rowdy people. Mostly I miss the conferences. You haven't partied until you've partied with accountants and bookkeepers. But I don't like to talk about accounting - I'd rather talk behind peoples' backs. It's much more entertaining. 

But here I am, living a fabulous life with a man who makes me laugh every day and a dog who does the same. Usually not at the same time. I have lots of time to read and lots of time to think about what I'd do with this house if I had the energy or range of movement. Fortunately it's fine as is. 

Since this is FB, I should be striving to make my life look FB awesome so everyone can feel jealous. But it's not! All I wanted this year was to get close to water and then get in it! I could fill up the bathtub, but it's hard to get out of, and isn't exactly what I'd pictured. Then again, I have to avoid direct sunlight, so five or ten minutes tops is all I can do.

It's a beautiful day here, so I might put on a blanket from head to toe and sit outside with Ash for five minutes. Any longer than that and I start breaking out in hives and skin cancer.

My life is beautiful. Even if I can't go for a walk in it right now.

xoxo

Monique
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