TheBanyanTree: Burnt Out

[Pam Lawley]

Just so you know Sheri - *I* got all tingly reading this...

I hope you enjoy every minute - and all that you find! - these next few
months!!!!!!

On Thu, Sep 22, 2011 at 11:32 AM, Sheri Baity <sheribaity at yahoo.com> wrote:

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> I've got one more show to do this weekend.  I wish it were over already.  I
> am so burnt out, it's not even funny.  I've lost my words, I've lost my
> family time and through all of the miles I've lost me.  I had forgotten why
> I do what I do.  I had forgotten that it was a gift to me to share with
> others and not a money, fame kind of thing.  I had forgotten about my
> mission with the animal itself.  Most importantly, I have lost my Spirit...
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> Well after 15 years of on the road, I have taken a huge step... I have
> cancelled shows and hunts for October, November and December!  I can't
> believe I did that, but it is done.  And for the next three monthes I will
> try to find the meaning of this and myself along the way.
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> So much has happened in my life that I'm sorry I have missed.  The simple
> things that use to make me inhale and feel tingly inside were the most
> precious to me at one point.  The opening up my email and reading about my
> friends and family used to be an everyday thing and enjoyment for me.  Now
> it seems like it takes everything out of me just to read them on a sometimes
> weekly basis and then I feel forced to give them some kind of response to
> let them know that I hear them... and 9 times out of 10, sadly that doesn't
> even happen.
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> So I guess you could say, I'm going home... finally going home to the
> basics and the life that has escaped me for many years.  No more chasing my
> tail in circles for me.  I can't wait to remember who I was, what my life
> was all about, reconnect with those that matter to me and enjoy life a
> little.
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> I'm sooo tired but I can't seem to sleep enough to fix that.  Fifteen years
> is really a long time to have been gone.  Too many important people in my
> life have been missing me, could use a friendly note, or an open ear.  And
> this one important person could really stand to find herself again... find
> that spirit to dance, breath and love life. And through all of this, it
> would be so wonderful to be able to write about it.  It has been so many
> years that I've looked up to or checked on Mother Oak to see how she has
> been standing.  When I think about that... that is sad.
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> So, at least for the next few monthes I will be relaxing, pondering and
> living the fresh air and scenery of the farm.  Who knows how many more shows
> I will cancel.  So if anyone is looking to book a hunt or schedule a
> seminar, I think ya'll better leave a message and I'll try and get back to
> you sometime in January because for now, I am booked solide for the next few
> monthes living again... Natures Cup... ahhhhhhhhh How I've missed you!
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> Sheri L Baity
> Crows Nest Calls
> www.crowsnestcalls.com
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> A woman is like a tea bag, you never know how strong she is until she gets
> in hot water~~Eleanor Roosevelt
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