TheBanyanTree: Flurries of Activities

[Margaret R. Kramer]

5/11/05
Love you too!
Sometime soon we will have to visit one of those things again. I love you,
you make my world go around. I live each day just for you.
Got to go.  Getting late for work.
Love you

I got my first response off of match.com.  Well, actually, he’s not new.  He
emailed me two months ago!  As you can see, I react to things at the speed
of a glacier.  In my old profile, I was using a Hermann Hesse quote he liked
a lot, so he began re-reading his Hesse books.  He just finished re-reading
Siddartha.  He doesn’t live too far from me.  And now the ball is in my
court and I’ll email him back, hopefully in less than two months this time!

The frost is beginning to melt off of my house’s windows.

I shoveled snow and now it’s snowing again, just the light fluffy flakes
that dance in the air before they’re exhausted and have to lie down on the
ground.

Ever since I went through Ray’s clothes last summer, his dresser and night
stand have been empty.  Then one day last week, I was talking to a co-worker
and it dawned on me that I could use the dresser and night stand for myself.
My jeans were all jammed into one of my bureau drawers, so I moved some of
them into Ray’s dresser.  I also moved my winter pajamas into his dresser,
too.

I used to keep my clothes on my side of the closet, but I’ve noticed they’re
gradually taking over the whole closet.  Even though Ray’s physical presence
is gone and I’m filling it in with my things, his spiritual being is always
with me, stronger than ever.  My heart keeps most of its space just for him.

I visited the cemetery today.  Not much new there.  Ray’s wreath is still
frozen in place, but it looks so festive.  There was a rose on the grave
next to him.  I met her once last summer when she was visiting her husband.

I got in my workout despite fighting off the resolutions people who will be
gone by the end of February.  I can’t believe after all the layoffs so many
people are still working out.  That’s good, but I thought I’d see the
recession hit the gym a little bit, but people are still coming in droves
and hogging the equipment and the showers.

I’m cooking chicken in the crockpot.  I baked a loaf of bread in the bread
machine.  I made cream cheese brownies from scratch.  I love to cook and
bake on a snowy January Sunday.  Asher and the boys will be home soon and
they’ll swarm like locusts over the food.  I loved cooking for Ray and I’m
glad I have the boys to cook for.

Tomorrow is Martin Luther King Day and it’s so appropriate it’s the day
before Barack Obama becomes President.  After eight years of being ashamed
of our President, it’s wonderful to hold my head up high again.  It’s too
bad my company doesn’t give us time off for MLK day and it would be great to
watch the inauguration, but I’ll see it on the news.  Even if Obama does
nothing for four years, he’ll be better than what we had.

Margaret R. Kramer
margaretkramer at comcast.net
margaret.kramer at polarispublications.com
www.polarispublications.com

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms
too full to embrace the present.
~Jan Glidewell
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